bi bu~

这条旧路依然没有改变,以往的每次路过都是晴天.想起我们有过的从前.泪水就一点一点开始蔓延,虽然你不在我的身边,我还是祝福你过得好一点.

hmm...

Last night chat with a friend until 4 something... then i noticed something that never can be seen in sandakan.. that is the sky is yellowish... full of haze.... I have decided not to go back le... hope i can get any reply from her... ^^ i bet my future career for her... I have received a call from a bank few days ago.. parents asked me go back and go for the interview.. but because of you.. i have chose to stay here with you.. continue the days we had before.. waiting....~~~~

Sad

Thought i met someone that will understand about me.. that perhaps i can bring happiness to her.. but she doesnt know i really like and care her.. maybe she really havent ready to start another relationship.. just hope these few days she will find me back.. i will leave her alone... I only can say to myself.. i can sacrifice everything because of you... just hope you will understand...

2nd sien day

Why you just cant let me know what is inside your mind.. Why you want to treat me like this? why you don reply my message? Why you don answer my phone? Why you don want to see me? Full of question marks around my head now. Did i really done something that you cant tell me?

28/10

Today is the first time she didnt reply my messages at all. I miss her. Maybe she is still angry at me because of yesterday. Yesterday i thought i have inform her before i went to her house, but im so careless that i didnt inform her. Felt that she was angry because i went to her house suddenly...After that her attitude was totally different and treat me so cool. Felt sad that she kept ignore me this and that. Maybe i should leave her alone. At 4 something we left the house together, i didnt chat with her at all. I worried about her but im not dare to chat with her because i want to leave her alone. Hope she will be alright and will look for me later. Feel so upset now. Should i go back on 31 of october? Stay here longer just because of her. I hope i can have a chance to take care her and i want her to be my girlfriend. I like her and i love her too. But sometimes i really cant really get what she is thinking. Hope that i didnt make a wrong decision for staying here longer.
In the afternoon, uncle Lo text me a message, it wrote " When are you coming back? How's your study of MII course for exam? You gotta make it fast so that you can start earning a handsome income, or are you loosing steam? " Hm.... complicated.. I didnt reply him... Just thinking about her... miss her chat with me... 其實我感觉到,就算我很努力 ，妳也可能不会會喜歡我, 我之所以這麼做並不是故意要造成妳的困擾, 而是希望在我有限的時間裡, 證明我曾經很用心的去愛一個人, 這樣就足夠了,